A present for myself...

Well its official... after much hoping and wishing for years and years, my dream of having a reduction is finally coming true! I went and scheduled the surgery date today for September 16th, just a little over five weeks away and I cannot even begin to express how excited I am (well not for the surgery itself, that sounds a little weird but you know for the end results) and how grateful that my insurance is going to pay almost half of it. I know it's not going to be pleasant for a little while after ( but I figure if I survived kidney stones I can do this) and I feel bad missing work for a week or so but I know already that this will be one of the best decisions that I've ever made in my life. Most of you that know me well, whether you've known me for years and years or just a little while, you know how self-conscious I am and always have been about this...so like I said this is a huge present for myself. I can hardly imagine what it will be like to not have my back, neck and shoulders hurting constantly, to not have permanent indentions and sores where my bra straps rub trying to hold up the weight (speaking of weight its got to make a difference there too...I swear these things weigh ten pounds each :-) to not have to buy bigger sizes of shirts because they are too tight there and to not have to pin the button down shirts where it gaps open there, to not have people make comments or stare at them while I'm working (yes this has had happened several times) to be able to stand up straight instead of purposely hunching over all the time, and well basically to be able to look in the mirror and not be absolutely disgusted! It's funny how we always want we don't have...I've had several people tell me how lucky I am to be so well endowed and in turn I have always been so jealous of everyone who goes bra shopping in the "B" department :-) So ya I am super excited at this point, not so much nervous, but I'm sure that will change closer to time...I have to say it will be weird for me after all the surgeries I've had to actually be going in their willingly and not in pain- ha ha. I may need to be reminded of this and all I said here come say Sept 17th when I'm laying in the recliner at home wondering why I wanted to go through the pain of it all? :-) Well anyway I just want to say thanks to everyone for their encouragment and support and for all the pep talks that have been given and will need to be given in the next few months... til I'm a new happy confident woman!